Brian Hertzog

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Illusions of Control

Greetings, readers. I write to you in the midst of what’s certainly one of the oddest moments of my life to date. All the petty trivialities and routines of daily life have been halted while nearly every country in the world simultaneously battles a crippling global pandemic. 

It’s taken me some time to string together some thoughts and process what’s been happening. If you know me well, you know I’m usually the naively optimistic person in the room, but lately it seems increasingly pointless to continue seeking silver linings amidst so much synchronous suffering. Still, I feel a duty of sorts to share some calming words of wisdom despite these anxious and sombre times.

To the best of my knowledge, the source of my personal anxiety flows from the chaos and uncertainty that this pandemic has caused. I like my routines. I feel safe when there’s order. But, these past months have humbled me deeply.  

How am I coping with the stress? I’m borrowing a page from the stoicism playbook by simply trying to see the world as it is and focusing my attention only on what I can control. The disruption to “daily life” as we know it has actually liberated me from whatever illusion of control that once preoccupied my attention. 

I can’t stop a virus no more than I can lull a hurricane or hush an erupting volcano. I’m reminded of the late astronomer Carl Sagan’s sage words about The Pale Blue Dot image taken of Earth by NASA’s Voyager 1 as it transcended our solar system:

It has been said that astronomy is a humbling and character-building experience. There is perhaps no better demonstration of the folly of human conceits than this distant image of our tiny world. To me, it underscores our responsibility to deal more kindly with one another, and to preserve and cherish the pale blue dot, the only home we've ever known.

Today, the only thing I can control with any certainty is myself, and it’s precisely within myself that I must find the peace and tranquility that I so crave. I wish you all continued health and endurance during these challenging days. May we someday emerge to a kinder world and remember to cherish the lives we’re still lucky to have.

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